Post BRUNO Pre ED

Excitement overload here yesterday, last night and today.

Now the countdown is on for Sunday!!!!!


Bruno Mars concert last night was AMAZING!

Sunday with Ed Sheeran will be even better.


Once again I am witnessing the power of human nature and it's pure honesty......

"How the fuck are you getting to meet Ed?"

"Why are you getting to meet him?"

"Gee, you must have good contacts".


I have visably watched people sigh and say "you got another thing?! Really?!".


It is probably better to start with
"Congratulations! I am so happy for Amelia!"

Call me old fashioned, but that is what I think.


I am not analysing situations like this anymore.
I am beyond people like this bringing me down.


Thank you to those that are enjoying this journey and difficult road we are on.

Thank you to those that are feeling the excitement and happiness within as we try to share everything as best as we can.

Sunday will be all about Amelia and Tom.

Amelia and Tom WILL BE MEETING ED SHEERAN!!!

I overheard Tom telling a friend "I won't get to talk to him. It is all about Amelia".

Most of you will know my internal response to this.
It begins with a Melbourne Demons Football to give to him, from Tom.

Now to enjoy the next few days and build up in excitement to such a monumental event.

I know one amazing little girl who cannot wait.


xxx

Post Note.........

(Amanda has already agreed that she will be tied up, in a corner and have gaffa tape across her mouth during the "meet and greet". This is only due to her verbal diarrhoea issue when she is nervous).

Ed Sheeran Part 1

Hello friends,

Today's post is at the opposite end of the spectrum to the previous post!

Both are true, honest and real though.........

BUT this one IS GOOD!
SOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!

Halfway through last year Amelia suddenly asked to "use" her Make a Wish.
She had known that it was just sitting and waiting for her, for when she was ready.

7 years ago......she knew she could use it, when she was ready.

(we all knew she was terminal, but she did not originally)

People were starting to pressure her to use it due to the increased deterioration of her body, but we reassured her to use it at exactly the perfect time for her.

Something that was actually in HER control!

"IF Ed Sheeran or Bruno Mars ever come out in concert, I want to go. I want it to be my first concert ever" she said.

Both announce concerts, within days of each other, for the following year.

We could not choose so we tried for both.

We would never have succeeded in getting tickets if it was not due to an amazing friend called "Kate" for Bruno and my brother, Stuart, for Ed.
Both took hours upon hours of calls and stupid hold music.

AND Birthday and Christmas presents from Poppy!

Anything for Amelia though!
(No regrets at the end!)

Bruno took 2 hours to get tickets, Ed took 4.5 hours (and a broken call button for my brother on his mobile phone!).

After all of that....

"I want to use my wish" Amelia suddenly says.

"Ok. What for?" I ask.

"I want to meet Ed Sheeran".


MASSIVE.
She wants to finally make a decision and use her wish.


We apply online and 2 amazing volunteers come to our house at night time.
They want a variety of wish options.

I am like "NO" she wants THIS ONE only!!!!!

BUT it does not work like that.
You have to put in 3,
because sometimes they are not possible to achieve.

BUT she ONLY wants to use her wish to meet Ed, I explain.

Stiff shit, I am told nicely.

Sometimes they are declined.


The Ed Sheeran wish WAS declined from someone's end and she then felt "no wish then please".
She no longer wanted to use her Make a Wish.

(Make a Wish tried their best)



Make a Wish then moved onto her other choices, which were not as great (to her).
It took her 6 months to choose a new wish.

(we called them back to change the 3 wishes after 6 months).

She ended up making an awesome choice for her wish and it will hopefully occur later this year.
But Ed was always the original idea.


We were still going to the concert/s OBVIOUSLY of Bruno and Ed.

The whole immediate family to Bruno (first concert ever for both kids!).

My brother (a massive Ed fan) to the second one, with me and the kids (no Scott).

All in the matter 0f 5 days!!!!!


REWIND........

Last week, I received an email from Frontier Touring offering "a meet and greet competition".

It required a 25 word response to WHY you should win and a share on FB.

My 25 words was to the number exactly and explained

"My daughter, Amelia, loves Ed Sheeran SO much that she wanted to use her “Make a Wish” to meet him. But it was declined ".

I shared it.
Friends started sharing it.
I shared it on Amelia's Project page....


BUT I applied to the competition they were offering with a 25 words thingo and shared on my personal Facebook page casually.
I DID NOT THINK ANYTHING WOULD COME OF IT!

Friends and associates began sharing and writing their own comments and #tags.

I shared on Amelia's Project Page (which I feel beyond gratitude for people sharing as well!) and the things started happening 100+.

I never expected anything to happen from it.


Jessica messaged me wanting an email address for Ed's manager.

WHO is Jessica?
Apparently she is a long distant relative on Amelia's Project page.

(I have since learnt her close connection and how amazing she is).

Meredith messaged me wanting approval to pass on details of mobile and email address to 3AW and Neil Mitchell.

(everyone knows how awesome Meredith is!)

Then Jessica messaged me while I was cooking dinner.
"Ed's tour manager has emailed you".

I open the email and fall to my hands on my knees.
I start reminding myself to BREATHE.

It said
"With regards to meeting Ed, it will happen at 5:30pm on March 11th".

There was LOTS of other stuff in the email, BUT this is what I almost collapsed over!

I ran into the living room and announced to Scott and Amelia "OMG! We are meeting Ed Sheeran".
(sounds so monotone in writing, but it was dramatic and LOUD! VERY Loud!).

I ran down the back to Tom and announced the same thing!

Everyone went into shock while Amelia posted it to FB.

People start texting my phone "UMMM is she serious?!"

I was the crazy person running around the house screaming OMG, OMG, OMG!!!!!!

I ran across the road to tell our neighbours and get called in to witness their gorgeous 3rd child walking for the first time..............TOO MUCH!!!!!

(Unfortunately I kept dinner cooking and totally burnt it!).



The next morning sweet, quiet Amelia got up and sat in her chair...

"Mum... Am I really meeting Ed Sheeran?" she asked quietly.

I went up and held her hand and said "Yes! Yes you are".

She quietly had happy tears while listening to the song below.

Sometimes it takes a village to raise a child.

THIS village is helping me to have no regrets at the end.

https://youtu.be/2Vv-BfVoq4g?list=RD2Vv-BfVoq4g

And in everyway she is totally perfect to us.

Thank you Village.

I will have No Regrets At The End with all of you helping me along the way.

(I will try photo's, video and LIVE on the night).

xxx

Dear Amelia and Tom

Dear Amelia and Tom,

I am sorry.

I am so incredibly sorry.

Amelia you are 14 and Tom you are 11.

Both of you are dealing with conditions that are genetic and created by your daddy and I.

You are dealing with everything different in your lives because of your daddy and I.

Our genes created both of you and all of your differences and difficulties.

We did not know though.

I so, so promise, with all my heart we did not know.

Tom, you have to deal with such limited sugar and carbohydrate intake.
Measured food and limited choices for you, my amazing boy.

You are woken up at all hours of the night and are forced to eat and drink while half asleep to get your BSL to a safe level.

Discussions 4 times a day (including daily calls from school) about insulin doses based on exercise etc.


Amelia's A-T gene disposition could have been compared to a whole MCG full of people..... and just your daddy and I had the A-T gene.
We were soul mates when we met and made you.

A beautiful, teenage loved up couple.

One in 4 chance of creating an A-T child.......
and we did it.

YAY!  us.......

NOT.

We lost your mobility slowly, after creating it.

We are losing your speech, after creating it.

We are losing your brain after creating it.

Now Amelia's lungs are failing her slowly.....thanks to our genes.

We always new it was terminal, BUT this is scary.

Lungs = breathing = staying alive.

I do not know what happens next.

I am so, so, so sorry.

We just did not know.

Creating people so inspiring and amazing and yet making them suffer everyday due to genetic disposition.....

We are just so sorry.

We just did not know.

But...................................

IF we did know and IF we did know the typed facts........

We would have possibly stopped the birth.
You would never have been here.

I would have looked at me personally and thought that I was not the type of person to mother such children.

(I honestly say this sobbing while trying to find the keys on the keyboard)

BUT then I would never have been introduced to this kind of life.

A life of finding positives and happiness around every corner.

Thank you Amelia and Tom for showing us where to look for inspiration.

We know now to just look at both of you for courage in moving forward.

Our future may be scary, but you both seem to be leading the way.......

While daddy and I follow the path.

xxx

February 23/2/18

Hello!

Lots of changes here!

We have carers regularly arriving, for Amelia, and no one knowing in the family what to do while they are here!
It is REALLY weird.

People come into your house and try to do the job that you have always done.... BUT first they need to learn it!

They AND you are nervous!

It will take a loooooooong  time to adjust!

While the new carers are here, family members disappear to read, watch you tube or hide in a corner sleeping.....or hide.
I cannot find them, so I do not know!

I have to stay nearby and regulate myself on interrupting and helping Amelia explain things.

But after almost 2 weeks, it is slowly becoming a good decision.
(A decision forced upon me by therapists).

Amelia adores them and enjoys new ones arriving.

We will have 4/5 carers allocated to Amelia (for continuity and bonding) allowing for sick days and holidays.

I understand we need extra help with the 24/7 and Amelia needs the extra companionship and friendship.
She is seriously loving the extra attention.

I also need the help with Tom in school pick up and drop off as Amelia's school bus occurs at exactly the same time every day.
I cannot do both at once.

As we all struggle with the almost daily carer visits, Amelia loves it.....

At one stage I came in to her feet on our coffee table being painted with nail polish!

Amelia has become even more outspoken recently and is displaying even more "quick wit".

As always, introducing "new" people to her is a laugh.

"Did she just say that?" they say.

YES! we answer.

Yes she did.
Get used to it.

She is clever, witty and hilarious.
She is also very immature, squeals inappropriately and thinks penis's are hilarious.

God Help Me (on the last one!)

We have worked with her over the last 12 months to accept carers (strangers) coming to shower her.
For a 14 year old girl that is HUGE.
Naked, scars ..........and so incredibly self conscious.

We are so incredibly proud of her smiling, talking and laughing throughout the whole process.

Personally, I would have struggled......

We are currently working through a major hurdle in disability in our family.....
But the main person in the battle of acceptance, Amelia, has been amazing.

Amelia is our leader on this.

We can walk away, leave the house or choose not to speak.

Amelia does not have that option.

Carers need to work directly with her.

Amelia is showing AMAZING resilience talking and accepting others, while we try to work out hours and days for assistance.

I need to see 190% knowledge, understanding, acceptance and proof that you can care for my child safely.
One mistake and we may be in "danger zone".

A massive leaning curve for all of us.

xxx

New Lifestyle

Hello Friends,

(Please read the 2 blogs below before this one!)

This week our very first carers arrived!

We were all excited, petrified and realised it will take time to get used to.
Tom said "I probably shouldn't do play station while they are here".

"Nooooooo" I said.
"We all need to act and live normal!".

We have all discussed the new energy and ideas that will start coming regularly
(in the form of people!).

BUT how we are also all ingrained in routine and quiet time.
We have become such hermits and it is strange to have people coming and going regularly.

Hopefully they will inject another element of "fun" into Amelia's life.
She is truly ready for it and has already embraced it readily.

The rest of us need to just get used to it.

_____________________________________

In this whole process of understanding and accepting help from the outside, I have personally struggled , sometimes despite my online positive comments!

For 6 months, I have been preparing Amelia, while probably preparing myself more.

I know it is not admitting defeat, but that is how I have been honestly feeling.

Admitting that, even though I am a full time carer........... "I need help",
Even though "I am her mother and she is my responsibility".............. I need help.

Letting someone else have experiences with Amelia, regularly, that I should be having with her....

But this is part of the possibly "unhealthy" closeness Amelia and I have now.
We need time with others and apart now.

My body, my mind, Tom and Scott, need me to dedicate time to them too now.

In my process to find people to help us, I hurt someone special, dearly.....and her family.

I had a meltdown and struggled with it all recently.
I was cruel and unkind to someone.
I will be forever upset with myself for losing this person as a carer (and Scott and Amelia will never let me forget, because they thought she was awesome).

Another strike, cross and mark against my name.

Special needs and fear has changed me forever.

Sometimes I truly despise the person I have become.

Sorry.
That is very blunt........
BUT when you are handed a life of confusion, it is very difficult to know how to handle, confront and solve it....and situations that arise.
Especially in a situation like ours.

I will forever sincerely apologise to this family for my wrong choice of comment and behaviour.


______________________________________


Tom has decided to sign up for the ican challenge at his school.

When you learn about what that is, you will understand about why I may have hyperventilated momentarily.

In 7 weeks time, Tom (or Tommy for anyone around him)
will partake in a Royal Children's Hospital fundraising walk FROM Frankston Pier TO St Kilda.

50 kms.

50 F'N Kms !!!!!

BREATHE. BREATHE.

Type 1 Diabetics will understand my heart attack, fainting spell and loss of breath.

Serious Hypo Situation.
(Dropping too low into an unconscious state after the event).

BUT, BUT, BUT,
If anyone is going to look after himself and follow the rules.........

Actually NO!
Type 1 Diabetes is soooooo unpredictable, it is going to be a rollercoaster!!!!

If anyone is going to prove that diabetes cannot stop him though,

it will definitely be Tom ......
sorry Tommy.

TOM FOR GOLD!!!!!!

Or just completing the 50 km's and not ending up in hospital, would be good!

(disclosure - mum- Amanda will spend the next few weeks in contact with RCH to ensure diabetic child has a reasonable plan in place!)

(that will not work of course- type 1 does what it wants!)

(A plan that has insulin, sugar and carbs ready for a 50km walk - it will be totally inaccurate and mum will administer appropriate crap).

Tommy's mum will have anything and everything possibly needed.

Because she will drive the whole f'n thing !

_________________________________________________


Rewinding back to my early years, when I met Scott (1990 - 15 years old), I also met his 2 best friends.

Both friends had the most amazing mum's ever.
One mum of one of the boys had the most laid back golden retriever you have ever met.

This guy was one of the people that let me intrude the small "best friend" group they had created.

Actually, I think he hated me for a long time (but don't tell him I said that!).
We were only 15 years old!

He slowly let me get to know him while I got to know "his life".

For all the single mums out there, this guys mum was amazing.
She struggled and fed and clothed him on her own.
She housed him, while trying to live a life of her own also.
She was welcoming and amazing.

In the last 2 decades we all grew apart sadly.

Last week the stars aligned to remind him that "this group of friends" would always be there for each other.

The messages started last week about this amazing mothers ill health.

Last weekend she passed away.

I feel like this extraordinary strength of my youth and a role model to women in general has passed.

I feel this extraordinary man, that has followed and private messaged us on numerous Amelia's project blogs, has developed perfectly by the love of his mother.

Sometimes there are friends that will be friends forever, no matter the past.

Continue being the amazing person you have become.
See you at the funeral xxx

________________________________________


My Kitchen table is currently covered in a massive amount of paperwork and has a laptop in the middle of it all.
This NDIS plan is going to be very thorough and detailed!!!!

They want independence and quality of life for Amelia?
I am offering loads of opportunities for her to have it.

She has gone without equipment etc because of cost and timespan  to receive and all of that is about to change. I am determined to research, learn and apply for everything she honestly deserves in the next few weeks under the new NDIS plan

________________________________________

Finally.....
Last night Amelia had her nails done by the carers that came.
They started the process of a Communication Wall that I had prepared that shows Amelia what is happening and when. It includes a section for her to write what she would like to do and try in the future with these people.
I was able to cook tea and spend time with Tom.

Tonight I was able to watch Tom's footy training on the beach and socialise with parents (I am always isolated with Amelia because we can't get her on the sand).
I cant leave him and take her for a walk in situations like beach footy, because of his Type 1, and the exercise could cause him to hypo.
But tonight a carer took her for a nature walk around the area and bought her an ice-cream. She had an AMAZING time. They apparently laughed, giggled and accidently got themselves soaked by a faulty drink tap!

I was given the chance to talk to adults.
Many that have been around Tom's footy team for 3+ years.
I have never been able to just talk to them.

I will have to watch the amount of extra stimulation outside of school time though. Amelia was sooooooo overly tired tonight!

____________________________________________

Things are going extremely well and I am excited about personal growth in the future.
(I just need to work through issues on what has always been my "mantra" on Amelia's life and my constant part in it. Time to let others help).

I don't know how much more I will be able to blog for though.

Family pressure to stop talking about issues within and immediately outside the home have become quite intense.

The kids are growing up and sick of people saying "I read online" and "I read what your mum wrote".

Scott says "I love reading what you write, but no one else reveals stuff like you do. Maybe we should start keep stuff to ourselves".

My parents are questioning the information I reveal.

I have always been extremely open, but I have also been the one to receive the negativity and nasty comments.

Maybe it is time for private blogs.

Things are going well for now.
Maybe I have written enough in the past 8 years to show the disability pathway and heartbreak of a parent.

As Amelia says "YOLO".
You Only Live Once.
From someone that honestly knows there is no timeline on "that once", maybe I should sign off on that motto.....

Or the one I will always live by for Amelia......

No Regrets At The End.

Cant get better than that!

Many 80 year olds would love the life she has lived so far.

The love surrounding Amelia would be the number 1 request on anyone's list.

Love to you all.

xxx


xxx

2018

Hey Guys,

Almost Midnight here, so just a quick post!

We are so busy with a million things happening or about to happen.

Everyone here is the best they have been in a very long time.

Our baby, Tom, entered Grade 6 this week.
I was almost as emotional as Prep!
He has an amazing group of kids around him (and parents!).

Amelia has entered a new grade.
Year 9.
New teacher and different friends.
The first new teacher in 4 years!

I am so incredibly proud to say, after all the anxiety over the holidays, that she has totally smashed it!
She is coming home happy and excited and full of stories.

Amelia is honestly taking life by the horns lately (please tell me that is a saying, because Scott tells me that I get them all wrong!- I am the person to unknowingly make up words to songs and common sayings!).

Amelia is really trying her best and using humour and sarcasm to get her through many situations lately. Thankfully school is genuine!
(I wonder who taught her that!).

One massive thing is that we are about to have "paid carers" enter our home.

"Well the government has saved lots of money on your family" one person at Amelia's school said.

Call me stupid (just looked up the meaning of Martyr and did not like it!) but I have always held the belief  "I am her mother and I will look after her".
I realise now that she should have been introduced to people helping us earlier.

BUT I am not upset at myself for believing she was my responsibility only.
Maybe that has helped the close connection amongst all of us in the family.
All of us helping and learning compassion by helping one another.

My back and hip no longer want to be alone in this battle.
They have turned against me and gone to an agency.

I have spent the past 6 months preparing Amelia for this change and she is now saying "I AM SICK OF YOU ALL AND NEED NEW PEOPLE SPENDING TIME WITH ME".

Or yelling it.
I think I (or my hips and back) have prepared her well.

The Government have given me a small amount of money to pay someone for now.

MASSIVE.

A massive move for our family.

The hardest part is allowing people to enter our home every 2 days to care for a daughter that is mine.
To observe and judge and think on what is mine.

But I need to get over it.
It is what it is.

Another big thing to happen soon is the NDIS.
It is the new Australian Government disability insurance scheme that Amelia did the very first advertisement for a few years ago.

I cannot possibly describe how HUGE it is.
If I write the plan correctly and connect it to the correct links on their 50 plus pages of links....
I may be able to get her everything we have NEVER been able to afford.

I have done SO much study and need to do 3 times more to get her the best plan possible.

Stuff it up and you will be left with not much.

Have a look at the photo I recently posted on the FB page.
I am aiming for stuff like that.
They want "independence" and " quality of life", I have pages of things she needs.

I have so much that would help Amelia.

I seriously cannot wait.

But we can also only try, because they may say no.........

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But as I said to Tom's new teacher this morning.....
As we finished discussing HIS diabetes....

I have no idea about either of the kids anymore.

I have no idea what may happen with Amelia this year and whether we will end up in hospital or not.
What her diagnosis or prognosis may be, after previous years.

I have no idea whether we will be in a dangerous life situation "health wise" or not.

BUT please rest assure, I have the most amazing village around us to look after Tom outside of school hours.

The most amazing people that adore and love and discipline him as much as we do.

There is also ONE amazing teacher here, that he will always run to, when times are difficult.
One he adores and will just sit and talk to.

She got him through the unexpected cancer battle and has opened her door to help him through anything in the future.

HUGE for a pubescent boy.

But he still talks regularly about and to her, through playtime etc.

You, new teacher,  may need to look after him emotionally during school hours and that may be a task we need you to step up to.

Just warning you, because we all have no f'n idea what is around the corner!

But as always......
we smile
we laugh
we joke
we live with sarcasm
AND most importantly,
WE stick up for each other.

Cheers to 2018 friends xxx

January 2018

(edited A LOT from a few days ago)

Hi Guys,

I have been writing on here frequently since 2010 and it is always a release and an explanation of many things.

It may be something expected about "our life"......

My life.

It may be a 'thank you' or message of appreciation.

It may be a story about an adventure, visitor or holiday.

Many of you have said that I have helped you through difficult times by showing that "we all go through that"......

That "you are all so seriously normal in thinking and experiencing that"......

After 10 plus years of special needs, I am happily insane.

Many of you read this to laugh at the insanity, add to your "see, she is nuts" and "we better keep an eye on her".

But I also have "She is doing well" part.


2018 may be my year.

Tom and Scott believe it may be their year too.

I am happy with the adjustments our family has made over the years to cater for the realities and differences.

I am happy with the to and fro of life in this house.

One child in this house is dying faster than any of us (if you go by what is already known).

Hospital.
Another new Diagnosis.

You have read it all.

Change and development happens with any family.
The to and fro of age and change.

Ours is just different to "the norm".

The best analysis of myself has occurred over the last 12 months.
Of myself, by myself.
(biggest would be post diagnosis)

The biggest analysis of ALL in this house has happened over the last 12 months for each individual.
We all talked like we always have, but you can see change, progress, happiness and positivity in that talk.



When you are young and growing and changing...... you lose and gain many individuals along the way.
Some stay with you when you think they are long gone, courtesy of social media.
They are sometimes the ones to keep you alive and carrying on.
Little messages or visits are like a warm hug.

That is something I have often struggled with on here though.....the ones lost.
The mistakes made and nasty words spoken.

But I finally realise I can no longer blame myself for losing some or analyse their decisions or behaviour anymore.

I am now so far removed from the person I was in my 20's and early 30's.
That person was bubbly, friendly and always helping others.
She had a career she was passionate about and loved.
She suffered badly from depression, anxiety and low self esteem.

In the last 10 years that has changed and she has morphed into a new person.
The new person cannot be described properly yet, because it has not been learnt about enough yet to describe.


I honestly feel like I have began the very first chapter of a whole new book.
Whether it is because of quitting smoking, recovering from the cancer scare and subsequent PTSD, I don't know.
I feel strong and confident and proud of where I am at emotionally.


Tom has finally "pulled his head in" for general behaviour.
(many of you have heard me say this to him over the years!).
He is finally a role model and someone to be proud of.
I love hearing other peoples stories about him and I love witnessing his amazing words and actions myself.
(he can still be a real little shit though!)
I am genuinely excited about watching him grow and develop more.

Amelia is finally spreading those damn bloody wings and speaking her mind!
She is suddenly very sassy and telling you what she really thinks when she feels comfortable!
Doctors have taken notice and are speaking to her about "her concerns" before me now.
She is funny, sarcastic and full of questions.
Amelia has developed an opinion that is becoming strong and confident about herself that I was worried would never come.
When doctors appointments, tests or ED are now mentioned she immediately jumps to the positives (the food she can get, people she will see, facilities she can access as an inpatient).

Amelia has a plan on marriage, children and her future career....
Who knows the future?!


BUT I am never going to avoid the judgement and jealousy from others.
Everyone lives different lives, thinks differently.

If you talk and if you talk personal on social media it eventually comes back to bite you, even in conversations with close friends.

But I am ok with that.
I can walk away confident with the decisions we have made to save our sanity.


I have THE most amazing children and husband EVER.

I can blog sad forever but not happy usually!
But I will try.

We have Amelia, Scott, Tom and I NOW.

How many more people need to comment how happy our house is?!?!

A neighbour commented on the seriously pathetic reunion last week when Tom and Scott returned from their "work week" in Sydney.

The car roared down the driveway and Scott and Tom flew out of the car towards the front door before the car barely stopped.

She said "my hubby and I shed a tear".

Inside we were all seriously hugging and jumping up and down.

Pathetic!!!!!!!!

We cannot whinge when we have so much love.

LOVE is worth so much more than anything else in your one life.



Anyway....

No Regrets at the end is constant and we have so many people on board to make it happen.

All of you would even say there is absolutely no way it hasn't happened yet.
Look at the list in the past 10 years!
Everything from Disneyland, meeting a real mermaid and being on a real commercial.

Amelia will comment the most heartfelt, tear jerking moments though.
The moments with those she loves dearly and is still getting to know.
I must video her comments on those people.
I hear comments regularly that would dumbfound you.

It is NOT the big moments we all celebrate.
It is the genuine moments.
No money or plans needed.

A girlfriend recently looked up Amelia's birthdate/starsign.

She had looked up everyone else's at the table and I was secretly scared of Amelia's because of what I have experienced in previous years........

Amelia's said...

Be very aware of your friendly and empathetic nature.
It influences others strongly in a great or negative way.
Be careful of what you say or do around others.

SO TRUE.

For so long I have seen her change people.

The man at the shopping centre 5 years ago that suddenly held her head and began humming.
and so much more.....

It freaks me out writing it!

She expels a feeling to others!

Amelia is entering a new year .
Level 9 and new teachers.

Tom is entering a new year.
Level 6 and teacher.

2018 we await you.

Frequent FB update awaits.

xxx